Some Bad Habits of mine

Ok, I have an embarassing admission to make. I am a smoker. Yes, I smoke cigarettes. I hate the habit, and am embarassed that I partake in such a nasty thing. I started in college, and it kind of turned into a nasty pack a day habit.

There. I said it. I SMOKE.

I know, I know. Bad for my health. Nasty habit. Men dont like smoking girls. bla bla bla. Ive heard it all. I dont LIKE smoking...but, unfortunately, like millions of other Americans, I am addicted. I knew better when I started too. Its not like I went out wanting to get addicted. It just sort of happened over time. I tried a few, and over the years, slowly eased into the addiction itself. It slowly worked its way into my life, like the devil.

I quit before, back in 2000 for about 3 months. I picked it back up again because all of my friends were still smoking, and I got weak. I chose to pick up the habit again, after going through all the trouble of quitting.

But, see now things are different. I dont have the same friends. Most of the people I hang out with do not smoke. I live in a state that doesnt allow smoking in any resturants, bars, or most public places. They've even gone as far as making a law stating that you have to be at least 20 feet away from the front door of any business before even lighting up.

So, Ive decided to quit. Why? Becuase I can no longer afford to smoke a pack a day. I cant cut back, its just not going to do me any good. I need to stop smoking all together. Last night, I went to get my cigarettes at the store, and for two packs I spent $13.17. OUCH. Im still pissed at how much that cost me!

So, Ive made a Doctors appointment for April 4th. I am going to get some Wellbutrin, and quit this stuff. Its going to be tough, but I need to do this for myself.