Some Bad Habits of mine

Ok, I have an embarassing admission to make. I am a smoker. Yes, I smoke cigarettes. I hate the habit, and am embarassed that I partake in such a nasty thing. I started in college, and it kind of turned into a nasty pack a day habit.

There. I said it. I SMOKE.

I know, I know. Bad for my health. Nasty habit. Men dont like smoking girls. bla bla bla. Ive heard it all. I dont LIKE smoking...but, unfortunately, like millions of other Americans, I am addicted. I knew better when I started too. Its not like I went out wanting to get addicted. It just sort of happened over time. I tried a few, and over the years, slowly eased into the addiction itself. It slowly worked its way into my life, like the devil.

I quit before, back in 2000 for about 3 months. I picked it back up again because all of my friends were still smoking, and I got weak. I chose to pick up the habit again, after going through all the trouble of quitting.

But, see now things are different. I dont have the same friends. Most of the people I hang out with do not smoke. I live in a state that doesnt allow smoking in any resturants, bars, or most public places. They've even gone as far as making a law stating that you have to be at least 20 feet away from the front door of any business before even lighting up.

So, Ive decided to quit. Why? Becuase I can no longer afford to smoke a pack a day. I cant cut back, its just not going to do me any good. I need to stop smoking all together. Last night, I went to get my cigarettes at the store, and for two packs I spent $13.17. OUCH. Im still pissed at how much that cost me!

So, Ive made a Doctors appointment for April 4th. I am going to get some Wellbutrin, and quit this stuff. Its going to be tough, but I need to do this for myself.

things are going swell

Ok, I know I've been slacking big time, and not been blogging. It was for a few reasons, but mostly becuase I got busy at work. By the time I get home, I have zero strength, and I like to blog at work when I have a free moment, since it helps to clear my mind.

But, I have a few really good things going on in my life lately. For starters, I've been reconnecting with a lot of different people on Facebook. I am surprising myself with all the people from way back when (and not so far back) that I am finding. People from work, college, High School and summer camp. I like it!

But, at times it can be difficult for me. Why? Even though I am happy with 99% of the people that I friend, theres been 1 or two people who I have seen on Facebook that have hurt me deeply, and I unfortuntely, cannot friend them. I will spare you gory details, but I want Facebook to be my fun happy place. I dont want to be worrying about stuff, like what that specific person thinks, or having to explain something to them. It shouldnt be that way. It should be about reconnecting, getting to know each other again, instead of "I wonder what this person thinks of me and I better watch what I say."

But, beyond that, things are going great. I just resigned my lease, and they didnt raise my rent! Yay! I met a nice guy last month, and have been seeing him, so we shall see how that goes.

So, we shall see how it goes, but so far, I am satisfied with the way things are going!